Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task. ~William James
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Monday, March 26, 2012

Done for the Week: First Things Last?

I'm continuing to fight the good fight--with myself.  And I'm continuing to lose.  I just can't get it all done.  I can't even remember what it all is. 

Despite having read about a zillion books and articles on slowing down, and simplifying, and living at the speed of life, I find myself busier and busier.  New assignments creep in under the door while I'm not looking.  New wrinkles, in time, on my face, and in the form of complications present themselves at every turn.

Things continue to get done, somehow.  Not necessarily the most important things, but . . .


Done for the Week:  Mar. 19-24, 2012

  1. Biked twice
  2. Worked with physical therapist once to restore injured foot
  3. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
  4. Read A Mind to Murder, by P.D. James
  5. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
  6. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
  7. Published 3 Put it to Bed blog posts
  8. Attended an Altitude Design Summit web class
  9. Continued work on current clients' projects
  10. Contracted with new client
  11. Prepared bid for prospective client
  12. Attended one yoga class
  13. Did laundry
  14. Continued college conversations with youngest son
  15. Meditated 2 times
  16. Met with Communications Team co-chair
  17. Co-chaired Communications Team meeting 
  18. Spent hours mocking up potential newsletter
  19. Helped take my baby granddaughter swimming for the first time
  20. Had lunch date with my husband
  21. Took my dog to the dog park
  22. Spent time digging out the kitchen
  23. Made arrangements to convert stock to IRA
  24. Made changes to the nonprofit website I volunteer manage
  25. Attended church service on e. e. cummings
The most important thing I did last week was. . .   Actually, I have no idea what the most important thing on this long and somewhat exhausting list was. 


Sometimes, I can answer this self-imposed question rather easily.  Something jumps out.  Today, I'm too tired to judge.  And to busy to take the time.  Not good signs.

Last week, I continued to try to focus on meditating and writing daily--or at least regularly.  

But, to my chagrin, "it's still not working."   I'm beginning to think I don't know much about focusing.  Maybe I'm missing the gene for this important human capability. 

If I'm honest, I have to admit that I never really give up trying to do all the other things on my literal and mental lists, so focus goals don't enjoy real primacy. 

For next week, I'm going to experiment with not setting a focus goal.  I wonder if it will make any difference to how I allot my time and energy, and to the results.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Done for the Week: Up the River

Another crazy busy week.  And the coming one promises to be worse.  Lots of stuff seems to be getting done; not much of it particularly well planned.  Planning takes a bit more time and energy than seems to be available to me just now.

At any rate, here's the list.


Done for the Week:  Mar. 12-18, 2012

  1. Swam once with my workout partner; canoed once
  2. Worked with physical therapist twice to restore injured foot
  3. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
  4. Read The Black Cat, by Martha Grimes; Rise and Shine, by Anna Quindlen
  5. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
  6. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
  7. Published 4 Put it to Bed blog posts
  8. Continued to participate more in the BlogHer community
  9. Continued work on current clients' projects
  10. Resumed work on previous client's large project
  11. Attended two yoga classes
  12. Did laundry
  13. Continued college conversations with youngest son
  14. Meditated 2 times
  15. Straightened my work room
  16. Attended Board meeting
  17. Attended Issues Night meeting; joined new voter id task force
  18. Traveled to Minneapolis with my husband and one son, to visit with my stepdaughter and her family
  19. Met my newest step-grandson
  20. Experienced a "wild ride" adventurous late evening canoe trip down the St. Croix River
  21. Celebrated St. Patrick's Day Eve Happy Hour with my husband
  22. Spent extra time babysitting my sick grandson
  23. Took my dog to the dog park
    The most important thing I did last week was traveling with my husband and son to visit my stepdaughter and her family, including their new baby.  

    I have often commented that my "blended" family is more like something out of a Cuisinart gone wrong.  At this late date in my second--and last--marriage, I wish to provide all of us with as many pleasant experiences as possible.  And although this one required sitting in a car for more than 16 hours, among other inconveniences, it was completely worth it.  Wedging a seven-mile canoe trip, between river banks dotted with snow, against the wind and the dwindling light, sandwiched into a 2-1/2 hours round trip by car from their house, was totally over the top--and again, well worth it.  A high point was rowing past an island whose trees were filled with blue heron nests, and watching the beautiful awkward birds take flight.

    We also took the scenic route home from Minneapolis, driving along the banks of the Mississippi.  The riverfront vistas of  bluffs and locks and aspen filled our eyes and souls with unaccustomed wonder.

    Back in the everyday world, last week's focus goal was "to continue the effort to meditate regularly and to write every day for the remainder of March."

    As in previous weeks, I continue to have difficulty pulling this one off.  According to all the magazine articles I peruse while on a stationary bike or at my physical therapist's office, all the books I'm slogging through, and all the blogs I consult, it should be a simple matter to effect these habit changes.  All I have to do is implement the programs dictated by the "new science of the brain," and voila!  I should be meditating and writing up a storm, as desired.

    But as with my governor's job creation approach, "it's not working."   However, I'm not being recalled--at least not yet--and so I have some time to get it right. 

    Next week:  same focus goal, same resolve in the face of anticipated same uncooperative circumstances.  I plan to tweak, and tweak some more.

    Monday, March 12, 2012

    Done for the Week: Focus Pocus

    If Samson's voluminous hair was the source of his fabled strength, my formerly reliable left foot may have been mine.  
     
    It has been months now that I've been struggling with pain and diminished mobility at the aggravated site of a five-year-old injury.  For much of that time, I have been ordered by various health care professionals to "rest" the offending appendage.  While I can bike and swim, and most recently use the elliptical trainer, I am still enjoined from running.  Which makes this newbie triathlete more of a bi-and-a-half-lete.  And not a very happy one.
     
    The enforced suspension has kind of muted my overall motivation to train, and dented the athletic identity that kept me moving.  I am getting lazier and lazier about working out.  And that laziness threatens to expand into a general miasma.
     
    I did get some things done last week, but I had to lash myself from time to time to do so.

    Done for the Week:  Mar. 5-11, 2012

    1. Biked once; swam once with my workout partner
    2. Worked with physical therapist twice to restore injured foot
    3. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
    4. Read Plain Truth, by Jodi Picoult
    5. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
    6. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
    7. Published 5 Put it to Bed blog posts
    8. Continued to participate more in the BlogHer community
    9. Continued work on current clients' projects
    10. Resumed work on previous client's large project
    11. Attended two yoga classes
    12. Went out to dinner with my two sons
    13. Did laundry 
    14. Continued college conversations with youngest son
    15. Signed youngest son up for ACT testing
    16. Meditated 3 times
    17. In addition, attended day long Buddhist meditation retreat, involving approximately 200 minutes of sitting and 60 minutes of walking meditation 
    18. Straightened my work room 
    19. Attended Social Justice committee meeting 
    20. Met with Communications team
    21. Attended church service
    22. Signed up for Journey to Membership classes at new church
    23. Watched an episode of Trigun with my son
    24. Survived transition to Daylight Savings Time
    Continuing physical therapy on my injured foot was the most important thing I did last week.  I am coming to understand the importance of working through this injury, and the drain it has placed on my energy and exertion in all areas of my life.  So keeping the therapy appointments, and doing my "homework" in between is crucial.  In addition, I will need to keep fighting the urge to sit down and stay seated.  And that will mean forcing myself to get to the gym more often.

    Last week's focus goal was "to concentrate on writing and meditating, continuing the approaches that have been working recently.I would say that I succeeded in holding the line--more or less, and by hook and by crookA very intense day-long meditation retreat stood in for some of the shorter daily sessions I didn't manage to squeeze in during the week.  And though I fell short of my goal to write something each day, I did publish five original blog posts, begin work on a new poem, and complete a journal entry that led to a blog post.

    I have finally learned, it seems, that I need to stay with a focus goal for at least a month in order for it to "take."  So I have decided to continue the effort to meditate regularly and to write every day for the remainder of March.    


    I guess it says something about me, and about my ongoing organizational challenges, that I would attempt to implement a "focus" approach that has more in common with a firefly than a laser beam. . .

    Thursday, March 8, 2012

    Written in My Sleep
















    So maybe health and well-being are overrated?  

    The latest wrinkle in the NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) vein is Joseph Bates' book, The Nighttime Novelist:  Finish Your Novel in Your Spare Time.  What spare time, you may well ask?  As I am asking.

    As you might have guessed from the title--really, it's not hard, since the word "nighttime" is right there after "the"--Mr. Bates, in fact, has in mind that same part of the day that Gretchen Rubin [The Happiness Project] tells us we should spend comatose, if we want to be happy; that Dr. Andrew Weil advises we pass unconscious in order to be healthier and more energetic; that doctors at the Mayo Clinic recommend we devote to dreaming in order to improve blood pressure.

    But Bates is more concerned with our artistic output.  He holds up as exemplars those "famous authors who held day jobs and then did their best work by night."  He intended to begin his book by mentioning 
    Franz Kafka, who spent his days at a cramped desk at Workers Accident Insurance Institute of Prague and his nights hunched over his writing desk at home, making stories and novels so fantastic and strange it would be necessary to coin a term, Kafkaesque, to describe them[;]
    and to go on to name
    William Carlos Williams (practicing physician) or Joseph Heller (advertising) or Toni Morrison (publishing). . . . [and to] bring up stories, by now well known, of authors currently making more-than-comfortable livings who began by stealing time to write:  Stephen King, for example, who taught high school English, or John Grisham, who worked as an attorney, or J. K. Rowling, who, as the story goes, was actually fired from her job and was on welfare when she began writing Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.  For a bit of comic relief, I'd bring up William Faulkner's stint as a postmaster ... comic because I find it difficult to believe any mail was actually delivered.
    But, he says, his list grew too long to consider these individuals anamolous.  
    The truth is, there are only a handful of writers working who make their living solely by their fiction.  Most are people who put in long days, have families to care for or responsibilities to meet, work hard to make the bills, could probably use a rest, and who nevertheless feel compelled, after all is said and done, to sit by themselves and write stories.  These Nighttime Novelists publish the majority of books on the shelves.
    To be fair, Bates concedes that this "spare time" can also be found by getting up early, and by writing on weekends.  But in either case, it's still coming out of the rest we are constantly being reminded is essential to our general welfare. 

    Another writer who prescribes midnight oil burning is Jonathan Manor, guest blogger on Jeff Goins Writer.  (Goins introduces Manor as "obnoxious, insecure, and above all else, awesome."  Maybe he'd have a better personality if he got a little more sleep?)

    Manor's guest post is entitled "Why You Should Be Writing at Night."  In it, he tells us that
    Good writers write at night, because it’s devoid of distraction, there’s nothing else left to do in the day, there’s no one else to hurry to. It’s simply just you being yourself and pouring out the emotions that you’ve gathered from your day time experience and using that creativity to create something beautiful and interesting.
    I, personally, designate a time to write “good” pages between the hours of 10:30pm to 3:00am.
    Manor doesn't advise destroying one's health.
    Getting to bed by 3:00am gives me the opportunity for a healthy night’s sleep where I could wake up at 10am and get to work by noon. Sleep is important, never skip out on sleep, meals, and play time.
    He personally has a minimum wage part-time job in an interior decoration store, which accommodates his nocturnal creativity. 

    It does seem sometimes like the only way I’m going to get more writing done is to take the time from sleep, as these gentlemen suggest.  But since lack of sleep can lead to depression, exaccerbate my high blood pressure, or trigger anxiety, that's a problematic solution.  And my day jobs involve meeting with clients at their convenience, learning and utilizing complex new technology, and caring for small children and putting up with big ones.  I need my wits about me, and my work schedule is unpredictable and not especially flexible.

    I suppose it doesn’t make sense for me to keep trying to cram more stuff into my days. But if something’s got to give, maybe it shouldn’t be sleep. 

    For tonight, I'm already up past my bedtime.  My husband is next to me asleep.  I need to be done with this post.  I will pay for this in the morning as I struggle to make an early meeting.  

    Time now for my "medicinal" glass of wine, and the couple of pages of Proust I can finish before I conk out.

    Proust, "most of [whose] writing was done in bed, at night, in a cork lined room, surrounded by the apparatus of the invalid."  Maybe he could have used more sleep?  And a bit more paragraphing.

    Wednesday, March 7, 2012

    What the World Needs Now is . . . Yet Another Blog Post?














    If you're a writer, maybe you are familiar with the dreaded bookstore malaise.  You know how sometimes, in mid-browse, you are suddenly overtaken with the strong sense that the world doesn't really need another book, especially not yours?  All those shiny jackets, fawning blurbs, and beautiful words seem so sufficient.  And really, you're not exactly Jane Austen, or the next MacArthur genius, are you?

    I have recently stepped up my readership in the blogosphere.  Perhaps a mistake. 

    Today, I have that sucked-out, flattened, so-so-many-books feeling about my blog posts.  With all these ideas, and stories, and images and sentences swirling around in hyperspace, what difference can it possibly make if I manage to crank out another post?  I feel redundant.  Cliche.  Superfluous.

    I suppose it's temporary.

    I've always managed to recover from the bookstore thing.  And gone on to scribble, fairly relentlessly, if not yet to a satisfactory conclusion.

    When my children have denigrated their talents, I have attempted to buttress their spirits with the example of a profusion of flowers.  Or of snowflakes.  No two alike.  Each one having its part to play, its contribution to make in the bouquet, or the blizzard. 

    Tonight, my small effort is this self-questioning post.  This reaction to the multitude of online commentary in which I've been immersed.  This dark night of the blogger's soul.

    Monday, March 5, 2012

    Done for the Week: Leaps and Bounds, and a Bit of Limping

    February was full of celebrations, this year even more than usual.  And as I am working with my physical therapist to repair my "gait mechanics," I am challenged as well to negotiate the choppy rhythms of my days with strength and grace.

    March should present a more even surface.

    In this last week of February, in between snowfalls and tantalizingly warm days, stress and happy moments, I managed to get the following done:

    Done for the Week:  Feb. 27-Mar. 4, 2012

    1. Biked once; used elliptical trainer once; swam once with my workout partner
    2. Continued physical therapy for foot injury
    3. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
    4. Read The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake, by Aimee Bender
    5. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
    6. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
    7. Finished participating in BlogHer's NaBloPoMo for February
    8. Published 5 Put it to Bed blog posts
    9. Published 2 ReVersing Course posts
    10. Invented NaJusWriMo, to keep myself motivated to write; and signed on for March
    11. Began to participate more in the BlogHer community
    12. Continued work on current clients' projects
    13. Attended two yoga classes
    14. Had dinner with friends; baked and brought a (not particularly sad) lemon cake
    15. Did laundry 
    16. Continued college conversations with youngest son
    17. Meditated 6 times
    18. Straightened my work room
    19. Took my dog to the dog park
    20. Made and communicated the decision to leave my current church, coincidentally on Leap Day
    21. Celebrated our Leap Day anniversary with a small late-night Champagne party for two on the actual day
    22. Made arrangements to explore joining new church
    23. Attended new church with my husband and a friend
    24. Saw Art Museum's Accidental Genius exhibit of self-taught artists with my husband
    25. Celebrated our Leap Day anniversary two days late at the County Clare Inn
    26. Watched an episode of Eureka with my son
    27. Watched Devil in a Blue Dress with my husband
    Successfully finishing the February challenge of BlogHer's NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), and establishing my own NaJusWriMo (National Just Write Month) in order to continue the writing momentum inspired by NaBloPoMo, constituted last week's most significant achievement.  I am looking forward to continuing to take my writing more seriously, and to making more regular time for it.  I am beginning to believe that writing constitutes, at this time in my life, the deep yes I wrote about searching for some weeks ago.

    Last week's focus goal was "to strategize; to figure out how to apply what I know and am learning to the problem of wanting and needing to meditate, but not making time for it."   

    For whatever reason, I ended up skipping past the strategy part, and going straight to the meditating.  However, some semi-conscious tactical work appears to have taken place.  The key elements of last week's almost daily meditating, after weeks of wishful thinking about meditating, appear to have been these:
    1. I identified a time of day that had worked for me in the past, slotting in my practice as close as possible to that time.
    2. I forced myself to meditate before lunch, which in turn preceded leaving for my afternoon job three days a week.  In this way, lunch served as a buffer that promoted the feeling of having enough time to meditate, and as a reward for having done so.
    3. I lowered the bar in three ways, so that meditation didn't seem so daunting as it had become:  a.  I shortened the time from 20 minutes to 10;  b.  I relied on relaxation videos of nature scenes and sounds as a way of easing into a time of quiet; and c.  I skipped the cushion that had become a nemesis, and did my sitting on the couch in my workroom.  I view these measures as a form of training wheels to facilitate my return to this "bike" I had become so accustomed to before.  My intention is to continue using them until the habit is stronger, and then to remove them one at a time until I am once again sitting unsupported.
     I observe that I am feeling somewhat calmer--though perhaps only because I am not spending as much time flogging myself about not meditating? 
    For the coming week, I am focusing on writing and meditating, continuing the approaches that have been working recently.   
    What comes to mind is Michelangelo's purported description of how he created his sculpture of David:  "It's simple.  I begin with a piece of marble and remove everything that isn't David."  I feel like I am engaged in the attempt to unearth myself from all the busyness and clutter that keep me from being who I want to be.

    Thursday, March 1, 2012

    BlahBlahWhatNow?

    I have decided to create my own event, "borrowing" liberally from the now infamous NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) phenomenon, and the derivative project which goes by the equally inscrutable, and slightly salacious sounding name of NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month).  

    I recently participated in BlogHer's version of NaBloPoMo for the month of February.  As I mentioned in a previous post, I observed that some bloggers sign on for another month of NaBloPoMo at the conclusion of a month of blog posting.  I had been deliberating about whether or not I should do the same 
    in order to "set" my new work energy and orientation, or . . . move to re-focusing these assets on other writing projects.
    And then it came to me.  I could invent my own month of what procrastination experts term "pre-commitment."  Since blog posts are not all I want to write, and nor are novels (not even the one I am halfway through), I need a more expansive variant.  I'm calling it NaJusWriMo (National Just Write Month).  

    Of course, it will need its own "badge," for those who want to commit online and display that pledge.   

    Ta-da!



    And, of course, some rules, which follow:

    1.  Establish a list of what you yourself regard as "legitimate" writing products--i.e., output that makes you feel like a writer.  This is individual.  For some, it might be a letter to your mom, a grocery list, your memoirs.  For others, it could be a blog post, your very own War and Peace, a Pulitzer-worthy poem or play or piece of reporting.  Some of us might feel particularly writerly penning a song, an ad, a screenplay, a doctor's excuse--fictional or otherwise--or a piece for radio. 

    You will know what will satisfy your writing urge when you see it.

    2.  Specify criteria against which you can measure said output.  E.g., minutes/hours; pages; words; lines; posts; etc.

    3.  Produce at least one writing product which meets whatever criterion you have determined each day.

    4.  Keep a daily record of what you produce.

    For myself, this blog post counts as today's writing.

    Please feel free to sign on, if this sort of structure appeals to you.  And to let me know how it's going.  

    Monday, February 27, 2012

    Done for the Week: Still Climbing, Ala Winnie (Churchill, not Pooh)

    The quote I put up for this week is from Winston Churchill, who said:
    Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb.
    This, from a man who was famously hounded by "the black dog" of depression--which, in my book, lends some weight to this "sunny side" aphorism. 


    Last week, as ever in the midst of my never-ending ascent, I was occupied with the following:


    Done for the Week:  Feb. 20-Feb. 26, 2012

    1. Biked once; swam once with my workout partner
    2. Began physical therapy for foot injury
    3. Got my husband to the gym with me
    4. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
    5. Read Willpower:  Rediscovering the Greatest Human Strength by Roy Baumeister & John Tierney
    6. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
    7. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
    8. Continued participating in BlogHer's NaBloPoMo
    9. Published 7 blog posts
    10. Continued work on current clients' projects
    11. Met with communication team
    12. Attended two yoga classes
    13. Participated in phone call about my husband's retirement plans
    14. Did laundry 
    15. Babysat for my grandchildren, for their parents' first "night out" since new baby's arrival
    16. Continued college conversations with youngest son
    17. Meditated 2 times
    18. Straightened my work room
    19. Took my dog to the dog park
    20. Gave my husband minor assistance with taxes
    21. Scheduled my Leap Day anniversary celebration
    22. Scheduled potluck with friends
    Last week's most important accomplishment was successfully completing 26 days of BlogHer's February NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), which required posting a blog entry each day.  I am still relearning how much joy I glean from maintaining my blog.  And how much time I can make for writing when I make up my mind to do it.  

    The week ahead will bring the end of this NaBloPoMo challenge.  I see from the BlogHer community that a lot of bloggers "re-up" at the conclusion of a NaBloPoMo month.  I am trying to decide whether to take on another month, in order to "set" my new work energy and orientation, or to move to re-focusing these assets on other writing projects.   I'll keep you "posted." [I know.  Groan.]

    My focus goal for last week was intended to play to one of my strengths--reading.  I planned to finish reading Willpower:  Rediscovering the Greatest Human Strength by Baumeister & Tierney.  This goal represented a kind of backing up with respect to my recently failed attempts to meet a focus goal of meditating regularly.  The idea was to retreat to an achievable rung on this apparently too challenging ladder, to experience meeting the goal.  I was anticipating some take-away from the book that would make it easier to re-establish and keep up with a meditation practice.

    The good news is, I did read the book.  Though I didn't find it as "sinfully delicious" as its hype portended, and some of what the authors unveiled I had seen before, I did learn a thing or two.  I am still digesting what I read, and culling through the findings and suggestions.  I know I will write about at least one of the book's lessons in the near future.

    As to meditation?  My baby-step focus goal for this week is to strategize; to figure out how to apply what I know and am learning to the problem of wanting and needing to meditate, but not making time for it.

    Monday, February 20, 2012

    Done for the Week: The Frailty of My Powers

    Twenty-one years ago, my middle child was born in the early hours of Valentine's Day.  And into a complicated family structure that has meant multiple celebrations.

    Add to that our culture's Valentine's Day hype and promotion, which lays on a host of rituals and expectations, from personally addressed cards for the classmates of each of our children to blissful romantic rendezvous with our mates.  Stir in a little perfectionism, a pinch of über-mothering, a spouse's long-distance commute, and an abundance of sugar (what with all the cakes, and the chocolate), and . . . voila!  My February crazies.

    Of course, now that he's 21, and his brother is not far behind, we are not preparing 20+ Valentines each, or sending birthday treats to school.  My son bought donuts himself for his new workmates.  But it was a special birthday, requiring a bit more than the usual fuss, and entailing a rite of passage or two that invited parental "guidance." 

    In between icing cakes and hosting parties, I tried to get a few things done.  Here's the list:

    Done for the Week:  Feb. 13-Feb. 19, 2012

    1. Biked twice; swam once with my workout partner
    2. Finally chased down diagnosis of foot injury (not wonderful, but not fatal)
    3. Got my husband and one son to the gym with me
    4. Watched two basketball games with various family members
    5. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
    6. Read Death of an Expert Witness by P.D. James
    7. Continued reading Proust's Remembrance of Things Past
    8. Continued to work my two part-time jobs
    9. Continued participating in BlogHer's NaBloPoMo
    10. Published 7 blog posts
    11. Continued work on current clients' projects
    12. Met with my adbook successor
    13. Met with new communication team's members
    14. Attended one yoga class
    15. Did laundry 
    16. Celebrated son's twenty-first birthday, at 3 separate family gatherings/outings 
    17. Continued college conversations with youngest son
    18. Meditated 2 times
    19. Straightened my work room
    20. Attended board meeting
    21. Took my dog to the dog park
    22. Gave my husband minor assistance with taxes
    23. Celebrated Valentine's Day with my husband, in the background of Valentine's Day birthday observance
    As in the previous two weeks, my most important accomplishment last week was continuing to participate in BlogHer's NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), which required posting a blog entry each day.  In the relative ease with which I am managing to stay with this undertaking, I am rediscovering how much I love blogging, and how much time I can make for writing when I commit to it.  When I am truly into it, it is the kind of work that doesn't feel like work.  I am learning something here.

    Last week's focus goal was to try to meditate most days first thing in the morning.  Number of mornings on which I meditated?  One.  And that's using the word "meditate" loosely, to include some nearly pre-conscious, and all too brief focus on breathing.  My grade in this area?  F-

    I don't think it's that I don't want to meditate.  In fact, at times I long for it.  Just never when I could actually be doing it.  

    I've decided to move the book Willpower, by Roy F. Baumeister and John Tierney, to the top of my book pile, since 

    1.  Daniel Gilbert--of Harvard, the PBS series This Emotional Life, and the book Stumbling on Happiness says it is
    sinfully delicious . . . .[and a] fascinating account of the exciting new science of self-control, told by the scientist who made it happen and the journalist who made it news.
    and

    2.  Regular meditation is supposed to grow my willpower/self-control/discipline, and I can't make myself do this first thing.

    Reading Willpower is my focus goal for this week.  Since reading is one of the things I do instead of meditating, this one should be a slam dunk.  And after weeks of dismal focus results, I am in desperate need of a win.

    Monday, February 6, 2012

    Done for the Week: Taking the Energy Up a Notch

    Maybe it's a perverse reaction to Punxsutawney Phil's prediction of six more weeks of bleakness.  Maybe it's because my countdown clock registers 10% of 2012 gone.  Or maybe the worm has turned.  (See Words@Random's exposition of this vermicultural phrase's "roots.")

    For whatever reason, I have been a bit more focused and energetic this past week.  Here's hoping the worm in question remains in this position.  And here's the evidence of its workings.

    Done for the Week:  Jan. 30-Feb. 5, 2012

    1. Biked three times; swam once
    2. Used my newly purchased heart rate monitor for the first time
    3. Had oh-so-pleasant deafening MRI of foot injury; awaiting results from vacationing orthopedist 
    4. Watched four basketball games with various family members
    5. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Place of Hiding aloud with my husband
    6. Read Corduroy Mansions by Alexander McCall Smith
    7. Continued to work my two part-time jobs, putting in extra hours
    8. Signed on for BlogHer's NaBloPoMo
    9. Published 6 blog posts
    10. Continued work on current clients' projects
    11. Attended two yoga classes
    12. Did laundry 
    13. Continued supporting my son in his college application process 
    14. Set up college visit, subsequently cancelled by cold feet
    15. Supported my other son in beginning his new--and first-ever real--job 
    16. Took son out to dinner to celebrate job
    17. Had lunch and coffee dates with my husband
    18. Went out to dinner with my husband 
    19. Watched an episode of Eureka with my son
    20. Meditated 3 times, once in an MRI machine
    21. Finished re-hanging bathroom window shutters
    22. Completed repair on remaining bedroom closet door 
    23. Talked my credit union into one day's grace which allowed commingling of  two IRA accounts
    24. Took my grandson swimming
    25. Took my dog to the dog park twice, with one son and one husband
    26. Completed meal planning for coming week
    27. Did massive and expensive grocery shopping solo while men watched the Super Bowl
    28. Babysat grandchildren for daughter's doctor's appointment
    Last week's most important accomplishment was the re-energizing of this blog. A result of my new overall verve?  Or a contributor to that improvement?  Both, I think.

    Personal fitness trainer Sharon Sorrels tells us, referring to the process of physical reconditioning, that  "you have to spend energy to get energy - especially when it feels like you have no energy." If I remember the basic rules of logic, from the bygone days in which I learned them, this does not mean that spending energy always enhances our store of vitality.  Using energy may be a "necessary but not sufficient" condition of acquiring more.



    But it has been my experience that there are times (when the stars are properly aligned?  "when the moon is in the seventh house?"  when the gods are smiling?) when one good thing leads to another.  When the result of putting out energy cheers me, or the act of moving off the dime inspires hope and a sense of efficacy.  And this past week seems to have been one of those times.


    At the best of such times, putting to bed one thing after another becomes a spiral of effort and accomplishment.  And in this case, I am energized by my blog's return from its recent period of semi-dormancy, to tackle other things.  And the addressing of those other things leads me back to the blog with renewed purpose.


    I should also give credit to the decision to participate in BlogHer's NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month) project for the month of February.  This represents the kind of "precommitment" that Piers Steel (author of The Procrastination Equation) advises as a useful crutch for procrastinators.  For me, the public nature of this precommitment adds the frisson of exposure that puts me over the top, making me that much more motivated to deliver.


    My focus goal for last week was to meditate as many days as I could manage.  Apparently, I could only manage 3, but it's a start.  I remain challenged by a schedule that seems to change by the hour.  It might be a good idea to try pegging meditating to one or both of the two things I can count on happening every day--getting up, and going to bed.  For the coming week, I will focus on figuring that out, and on meditating as many days as I can manage.

     

    Monday, January 23, 2012

    Done for the Week: Out of Time and Out of Focus

    I am desperately seeking routine.  In particular, one that will support/permit the blogging productivity (two to three posts per week) that I aspire to. 

    Once again, I have fallen short. 

    Here's why, in part:

    Done for the Week:  Jan. 16-22, 2012
    1. Made appointment with orthopedist to deal with foot injury
    2. Biked once, and did weight training--foot injury prevented additional dry-land exercise; did hip-strengthening exercises twice
    3. Watched two basketball games with various family members
    4. Continued reading Elizabeth George's A Traitor to Memory aloud with my husband--almost finished
    5. Read Smokin' Seventeen by Janet Evanovich; am in the middle of "The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes" in The Complete Stories of Sherlock Holmes, by Arthur Conan Doyle, and The House by the Sea:  A Journal, by May Sarton 
    6. Continued to work my two part-time jobs, putting in extra hours
    7. Published 1 blog post
    8. Continued work on current clients' projects
    9. Attended training and was sworn in as deputy voter registrar
    10. Attended new church as visitor
    11. Attended 1 yoga class
    12. Did laundry 
    13. Continued to support my son in his search for an internship
    14. Had lunch and breakfast dates with my husband
    15. Negotiated dishwasher repair appointment and customer relations deal; ongoing. . .
    16. Shopped for final family Christmas celebration
    17. Hosted final family Christmas celebration 
    18. Paid the monthly bills
    19. Meditated 3 times
    20. Continued major decluttering, getting rid of approximately ten years of old bills and financial reports
    21. Straightened, vacuumed and dusted living room
    The most important thing I accomplished last week was the continuation of our household effort, mostly "womaned" by me, to dig out from the accretion of "the childrearing years."  I am entering a phase still short of "Maintenance", but beginning to be able to see more and more of the floor space in my ranch-style, full- (and fully occupied) basement house.  And lo and behold, we have closets!  And drawers!  And shelves and countertops!  I'm really counting on Gretchen Rubin's Happiness Project promise that "outer order [will] contribute to inner calm."  If I continue at my current pace of outer "ordering," I should be comatose soon.

    My goal for last week was to focus on walking; non-weight-bearing hip strengthening exercises; and swimming--and to make it to the gym three times. I can't say the week's effort was a smashing success in this realm.  As item 1 above reveals, I made it to the gym only one time, though I did manage to combine biking with weight-training.  I continue to have a hard time making myself swim.  Arctic temperatures, my hair-washing schedule, and a crazy round of appointments and activities provided a barrier sufficient to discourage my mild aquatic interest.  And despite my dog's encouragement (in the form of whining, and stealing pillows--his protest-of-choice), I didn't walk at all--other than from one job to another, and one room to another in search of sweets.  I did squeeze in a couple of hip exercise sessions, in addition to the one yoga class that wasn't preempted by an expanding work schedule.  But clearly, I could have done better. 

    I had also planned to find more time for this blog last week.  Unfortunately, the universe seems determined to eat the time slots previously reserved for posting.  I'm not sure how this is going to shake out in future, as my work schedule and young-man-launching activities and obligations are growing like Topsy just now.  I am particularly challenged by an erratic schedule, which changes from day to day, week to week, and semester to semester. 

    My focus goal for this coming week is to schedule three exercise sessions, three meditation sessions, and publishing of two blog posts (in addition to this one); and to stick to the schedule as circumstances permit, and re-work it, as they demand.

    Wish me luck.  I don't seem to be especially good at "pre-meditated" work. (Pardon the pun, which I confess was intended.)